Peachesapplesamcat
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06/04/19 "Noah"
You are abusive just like him and that has nothing to do with me. I feel like I am not enough for you. Why do you treat me this way? I don't understand. You've made me cry several times now but I still run when you call. You are making my depression worse and you might be the one to push me over the edge. I am allowing you to continue to do this which is on me and it is my fault that you are able to continue abusing me. I don't understand. You say you want to be friends but you don't act like it. And if you don't want anything to do with me why not just say so which leads me to believe that you are exactly like him. You don't care about me at all and you never have. You got what you wanted from me. That is also on me because I should have told you NO! But I didn't. But would it have been any different? Why do you treat me the way you do? You want no stress but everything you do creates stress for me which in turn brings stress to you. I don't understand. Am I wrong for wanting your attention? Am I wrong for expecting you to treat me right? I guess so. It is to much to be treated with respect I guess. I guess it is to much for you to want me the way I want you. You continue to lead me on by this string and I must break away otherwise I might die. Otherwise I might break down all over again. I can't deal with the uncertainty the not knowing if you actually want me or not. You comment on my body but never my brain. I don't understand why i'm not good enough I never should have went there that night and we might be in a different situation. If I had told you no I might not feel as bad. If I had told you no it might be easier to let you go. If I had told you no it would be easier to block you. If I had told you no maybe I would be enough. I should've left when she did.
By Peachesapplesamcat5 years ago in Poets
The Boy Who Never Learns
Part 1: Intro The bell rings loudly inside the north clock tower as I casually walk into class with all the confidence in the world. My hair is straight and slicked back like I've run my hands through it one to many times. I decided to go with red sunglasses to match the red lace bodysuit that shows quite a bit of my body. Along with red cargo joggers, a red belt that was so long one end swung down past my calf, and a red pair of platform chunky boots to top it all off. My nipples stiffen at the rush of cold air as I go to take my seat. Everybody turns to look at me like I knew they would but I pretend not to see them, one boy even dropped his textbook when he saw me, I smirked at that.
By Peachesapplesamcat5 years ago in Filthy