My First Time

All girls dream of their first time having sex as a magical beautiful thing that’s full of pleasure and toe curling moments but, my first time was completely the opposite.

So it’s sometime in March of 2017 and me and my boyfriend (who was also a virgin) had been dating for about three months. The tension had been building for awhile now and he was getting bored of the boring old hand job.

One night I was at target doing my usual shopping and I was like “you know what, I’m gonna get some condoms and I’m gonna have sex”. So I went to the condom isle and had no idea what I should even get. I ended up just getting a variety pack of Trojans. I went to check out with a girl about my age in hopes that she wouldn’t judge me too hard, but she did. It was already awkward then to top it off, two guys come to the same line and are behind me and I’m watching to see if they see them and of course they do. They both look at each other and then look at me and I just look away because the whole situation was just weird and super awkward.

The next day my boyfriend comes over and and we start watching a movie and of course that leads to kissing and then to touching. So I’m like “hey I got condoms let’s have sex” and he’s like “uhhh okay are you sure” so the we agreed to do it.

My dad was out for the day so it was just us and my step sisters (in the next room) so we went for it. It’s always great leading up to sex. The touching, the kissing.. it was just great. But learning something new is never easy.

First of all, Sex Ed doesn’t really teach you that well how to put a condom onto an actual penis. We probably spent about five minutes trying to put it on. Then once everything was set into place we had sex for about 15 and neither of us were enjoying it (we even tried 5 different positions). It was hot and sweaty and he said it was hurting him. So there we are both naked in my bed trying to figure this complicated shit out and then out of no where we heard a bang on the door.

Keep in mind this wasn’t just a knock, this was like a “Police! Open the door” kind of knock. My boyfriend literally pushed me off the bed and put his pants on so fast. Meanwhile I was still trying to find where my clothes even went. I asked who was at the door and found out it was my dad while he very abruptly asked why the door was locked (thank god it was). He kept banging while I found some clothes to throw on. I opens the door with my messy hair wearing shorts and a t-shirt with no bra. He looked at me with a face of disappointment and anger and asked again why the door was locked and I said “uhhhh I don’t know just habit I guess”. Then he gave my boyfriend the death looked at me and said “ okay keep it unlocked now”. I was horrified and about to cry.

After the horrible sex and the horrible experience I was sure that it wasn’t going to work out and that I had to breakup with him. Like how could I be with someone who I can’t even have good sex with.

The car ride back to his house was silent and once we got to his house I just started crying. He apologized for the horrible sex and told me it would get better. He always had a way of making me feel better. I realized that relationships aren’t based on sex and I was really falling for him so I stuck with him.

The next time was still not that great but it was better. I think after the 4th time we finally got it down. To this day we are still together and happier than ever. Oh and also the sex is great!