Life of a Sex Addict

I have been sexually active for 2.5 years. Over two of these years were spent with one man, while the past 3 months have been spent with over 40 different men and a few women. I do not really know how this all started, I can only tie this sexual behavior of mine to being heart broken and going on a sex spree to try and cure my broken heart. I got over my heart break fairly quick actually, but I stuck with the sex. I realized that having sex is fun, feels good and makes me a happier woman.

I have only told a handful of people how many partners I have had. The response of these select few have all been the same, "Why don't you just settle down with a guy and have sex with him all the time?" My answer is always the same. I am not interested in a relationship, I don't want love, I don't want someone to come home to; I am just looking to be pleased sexually. Of course one day I would love to settle down somewhat, I want a husband and I want a lot of children and a nice home and a stable career, but I also will be looking for a man that is okay with an open-relationship. So far in life, I have found I can not be satisfied by just one person. I need things to change and be unique.

When I tell partners my "body count" (how many people I have had intercourse with), they are always blown away. I am only 18, I am a seemingly normal freshman college athlete. Some men have slut-shamed me. They tell me I am not normal and that it is not right to sleep around so much. In my opinion though, I am doing nothing wrong, I am just doing what makes me happy. My happiness comes before the opinion of some guy that is upset he can't have me to himself.

Being addicted to sex is hard. Sometimes I can't convince guys to JUST have sex with me. Shocker, right? Most people don't believe me when I say I can't find a guy willing to only have sex with me and nothing more. I have had many guys try and convince me that I am just a confused girl, I don't really just want sex. They say I am probably looking for love in a fucked up way.

Basically, I am writing this so people know sex addiction is real. It is a hard addiction to satisfy and it can make a person look really bad. There is a huge stigma about women having a lot of partners being a bad thing, but in reality it is okay. It is okay to just want sex, it is okay to not want sex. For me, I am hoping to continue this lifestyle for a few more years. I do not think my addiction has negatively impacted my life yet, but if it ever does I will seek help right away.